Scared to death, and with my heart pounding,...I can't get a German Shepherd!

by Cynthia
(Oklahoma)

With a shot gun in my hand and the lights all on in the house, I'm by myself with 6 month old grandson and my yorkie, who heard every noise, and his ears stood up and he barked made me feel like I was consumed with fear beyond hope....not really, but that way I felt. My husband left for his 8 day shift at work, my daughter going on a youth trip for a week and they both leaving the same day at dark between 12:00 am and 2:00 am and I was wondering what I'm going to do....

After the thoughts of being by myself in a house for days at a time and I hate guns, told my husband I can't do this any more, he said you need a German Shepherd they are awesome protectors for the home. I thought about it for a moment and said, "Are you crazy?" I'm scared of those dogs, what would happen if the attacked me or my grandson or daughters friends, I was already thinking the worst.

After much study on the internet calling the vet and trainers and those that have had one and hearing the wonderful things about them I told my husband, lets go looking for one! I found some gorgous dogs in a little town by us driving up I saw a enormous GSD, I started swallowing hard and thinking to myself I can do this or can I?

We get out of the car and I wanted to run back, he said come on. We walked in their house went to the back yard and 6 little babies came running and sniffing at my feet and dancing around me, it gripped my heart for a second, I loved every minute of it. Wow these are not that bad. As I was playing with them on a wood porch with a gate, I heard it open as the own called a black GSD to come up the steps I felt the blood leaving my face she ran over to me I thought OH MY GOD....she took her nose and lifted up my hand for me to pet her I'm thinking, I'm getting ready to lose this hand, my right hand, I felt it, I felt it!

She kept nugging at me finally I petted her and she was so sweet. I just stared at the puppies eyeing one I wanted he was so calm and beautiful and I thought this is the one. All of a sudden a black thing flew upon the porch it was a toy, xx large kong, came from the father of the puppies wanting my husband to play with him. I didn't think much of it and then I saw two eyes staring at me his head was huge, and I was looking eye to eye at him he was enormous, I couldn't believe I was this close to this dog, I couldn't do anything but keep my eye on him.

I told my husband get back don' t play with him he will take your hand off, After a few throws of the kong the owner opened the gate I saw what are you doing he was quiet, the father of those puppies slowing walked on the porch I was backing up as far as I could looking for the handle to the door, I felt my face burning up and I started to cry, I said OH God we need to go, I'm scared... Scared to death, my heart pounding, and pounding I told my husband let me think about this, I can't do it now....

I got the door opened went to the car, I told him NO Way!!!!!!! I won't own one of those dogs I can't I'm scared to death of them let me have a lab! I looked for a lab, my husband had to go back out on his 8 day shift, I'm by myself again thinking, I called him I'm scared to stay by myself I was so frightened wondering what I was going to do, he said you ready to get the German Shepherd, I said, yes I am.....I started looking again I found a darling little back and tan guy, I called the lady we talked she said she had several.

I told her give me the calmest one which is the one I liked the best, I had to wait 4 days drove 84 miles to get him I fell in love with him the minute I saw his little face, he sat with me in the car, follows me where ever I go, sleeps with me in the bed... I'm so glad I got him, but thinking now I hold him all the time carry him everywhere, take him shopping what am I gonna do, he's 6 weeks old in about 6 months, I can't do this is he still going to want me to hold him, if so I guess I will, I know he is going to be my very best FRiEND!